| i can't live without your smile ; boy... |
trust me when i say
i know it will rain
sometimes..
..but i'll be just fine
as long as i got my
sunshine...
...
okay NOT COOL.
I DON'T HAVE MY SUNSHINE.
AND I WONT FOR A WHILE.
omgosh I start school tomorrow and the first fcuking week of school is going to be SO HARD without him T________________________T
...even though we dont go to the same school...
HE'S MY RELIEF WHEN I GET HOME.
omgooshh my heart
im going to die T_T
baby come back... T_T;
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i went to blacktown today...
HEARTBREAK.
so close but so far.
agh i can't write because im going insane...
...make him come back...
i can't do this without him...
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I love the dream.
but even more,
i love him.
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Everyday it rains...
When she ain't leanin right, I just feel the coolness in the air
I know my chances ain't fair
Everyday it rains... |
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would it be alright
if i could hold you tight
kiss your lips
and run off into the night ?
i cant face you
all the courage in the world
couldn't look you in the eye
and at the same time
hold the heart i have for you.
...but i can't go on
it's time to let you go. |
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Ok here's the final.
Dear lord,
my heart hurts...
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I reminisce about the day that we met ; please god never let me forget
I constantly reminded myself of the importance of being self-dependent.
A rare and extremely difficult skill to master.
I always had the idea that as long as I had my friends and family, I wouldn’t need anything else.
This was my mindset for a large proportion of my life…
…then I met him.
Cliché as it sounds…
He came and he destroyed me.
My life, cautiously crafted day after day over a period of 16 years by contact.
Masterfully, piece by piece by millions of influences, ideas, dreams…
…shattered in a moment by he.
He.
A grand compilation of my mind’s representation of pure joy, brilliance and perfection.
Validation was one of the many things which I could live without
One of the many things, which I hadn’t craved before he had made his entrance.
His effect should be illegal.
Intoxicating, mind controlling,
...intense infatuation.
A spiking pain which lasts…
A mere person, he is not.
He is belonging.
He is truth.
Ultimately, he is love.
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the sound of silence... |
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You spin my head right round, right round..
When you go down
When you go down, down…
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GUESS WHOS BACK FUCKERSSSSS ??
Yeah that’s righttttt !
SO.
I’ve missed out on writing about a whole fucking month..
SO LETS BEGIN…
…
Ok so yeah.. End of term was alright.
Fcuking tiring and whatever
I got my semester 1 report…
STRAIGHT B STUDENT YEAHSSSSS ?
Anyway… the holidays is what I gotta talk about :P
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SATURDAY [ 11O7O9 ]
FIRST DAY OF HOLIDAYS… and what did I do ? NOTHING LOL.
Spent the day chilling .. Cause I was so fcuking tired from school LMAOO.
SUNDAY [ 12O7O9 ]
Had a dinner with Erub and Obud.. HEHE. Took first caps together ! YEE !
Went to a cute Japanese place with touch screen menus.. (:
MONDAY [ 13O7O9 ]
FCUKINGG FAME. I can’t believe I didn’t fcuking go… fcukingg hell…
Fcuking Grace and Angela went to camp and so our group was a bit gay so we didn’t go…
I got a txt from Vihan at like 3 in the morning saying that it was good .. And I was like FUCCKKK.
So anyway…Erin and I were SUPPOSED to go swimming that day.. But something happened with her and her mother I think… and she had to go Ortho and that didn’t end up happening… stupid bitch. HAHAHA.
Instead ; went to have lunch with Cesy, Claudia, Jeremy, Jeremy’s girlfriend ; Yena ( OMGG SHES SO CUTE HAHAH ) and Novie. Man… EVERYONE was at the mall that day…
TUESDAY [ 14O7O9 ]
WOFFLEBEARR DAYY ! Spent the day watching DVDs with her LMAOO. I tried to straighten her hair and I pulled it to far back and stabbed myself in the stomach with my straightener and burnt myself real bad HAHAHA. Then Daniel and Erin crashed and we had ramen…as usual… and attempted to style Daniel’s retarded hair HAHAHA.
Was supposed to go to yumcha with the manly kids… but obviously I was busy.
And at night was Peter Yi’s birthday drink up… which we didn’t go to either HAHAHA
WEDNESDAY [ 15O7O9 ]
Erin and Cat went to city with the Ruse kids LMAOO. And our bestest friend .. Stewie. (: Anyway… I stayed at home on this day… BUT IT WAS GOOD BECAUSEEE…
I discovered the ever-sexy SALAD BOY.
GRACE AND ANGELA GOT BACK FROM CAMP.
Then at night.. I had the losers in my house and yeahh. We didn’t sleep or anything HAHAH. Spent most of the time on facebook…
THURSDAY [ 16O7O9 ]
WESTERN TRIPPP OMFGGG.
FUNNY DAY.
We set the alarms for like 8AM… but got up at 10 LMAOO.
So anyway, we got off the bus at Wynyard… AND GOT APPROACHED BY THESE LADIES…
“HEY ! Would you like to film a timtam ad ?”
… and so we did.
And it was soooo fcuking awkward and retarded HAHAHA.
The lady goes..
“So whats so good about love?”
And the sexy idiot that I am said…
“Umm… you can have it whenever ?”
SOOOOO ANYWAYYY…
We then got on the train for the 40min ride to BLACKTOWNNN <3
Gooddd… I love my Qtown.
Anyway everyone was a bit laggy because the trip there was so long.. So it was sorta fail LMAO. They said they didn’t feel very comfy either.. =__=“
SO WE WENT TO PARRA.
FCUK THAT’S ONE BIGGG ASSSS PLACE ?
Beautiful (:
Went back to Chatswood and ate .. Then went home… fcuking exhausted…
BUT READY FOR RACHELS BIRTHDAY THE NEXT DAY !
FRIDAY [17O7O9 ]
Everyone got up super early … FOR RACHELS SEXY BIRTHDAY. Everyone was calling everyone to find out what they were wearing.. How much money they were taking… what bus they were getting on… IT WAS A PRETTY HECTIC MORNING ! So good though..
We all met up in the city and proceeded to COCO PHOTO STUDIO.. <3
Aren’t we sexy bums ? They look much better in real life though… my scanner isn’t the best LOL.
Then we randomed around the city… ate, took caps… and took HEAPS of pictures.
GREAT DAY !
Most probably the highlight of my holidays.
Most of us caught the bus together and Rachel and Kylie went to my house to get picked up by the rents afterwards..
While we were walking up the hill to my house.. A group of faggy looking people started to follow us and Kylie full freaked out,
“OMG WE’RE GONNA GET ROLLED WE’RE GONNA GET ROLLED FUCK !”
OMG IT WAS SO FUNNY HAHAHAHA.
We full power walked up to my apartment HAHAHA.
Then stayed up so I could send Rayshel her birthday message :P
SATURDAY [18O7O9 ]
Rachel and William’s birthdays.
Went to the library to ‘study’ which totally failed..
Though we had the most hilarious conversation while we were in there.
Angela: “Do you wanna be a mum? That’s like my dream,”
Well… those weren’t her exact words… but you get my drift ? HAHAHHA.
SUNDAY [ 19O7O9 ]
Mara’s 18th Birthday
MASTERCHEFFF !… well, what was supposed to be Masterchef…
My older friends had been planning for AGES this game that everyone could all join in to…
Most of their group lives around Beacon Hill… so what they had organized is that the group [ around 30-40 people ] were split up into 3 teams which would station themselves in a different kitchen around Beacon Hill. Each member of the team had a certain job… and each team had to work out what those jobs were. The jobs included the chefs, video-er [ to serve as proof that they actually cooked their shit ] and the person who had to drive up and buy the ingredients from the groceries. Of course, we had the secret ingredient. When the cooking was done, each team had to drive up to a park [ conveniently stationed in the middle of each kitchen ] and present their fine work to the judges… who were my cousins LMAO.
Even though that sounds super fun… it didn’t go though. Noone was awake … most probably hangover-ed by the night before or something..
SO WE DECIDED TO HAVE A BBQ IN BALGOWLAH INSTEAD.
Which was hella good.
They were playing this really funny filo game and EJ kept falling on his ass…
… And it was good cause like… everyone else there was 20 something and I was 15 … hohoho. I was the baby (:
And yeah. Went to Novie’s place after zzz.
MONDAY [ 2OO7O9 ]
Erin and Daniel went to Angela’s house to cut his hair LMAO. So sad that I missed out on that.. T_T
But anyway… I went to the city to celebrate Mara’s birthday with her boyfriend, Carlo and her friend Kyla. ATE HEAPS. FAR OUT. And Carlo shouted me EVERYTHING… which was so nice of him HAHAHA.
Had 2 large easy ways, yumcha, pork chop and rice and FRENCH RIVIERA.
MURRDERRRR.
Really fun day HAHAHA. Went karaoke and randomed around… and learnt some filo. All good all good (:
TUESDAY [ 21O7O9 ]
Ok… not such a good day for me lol. I had planned to go out with Mara … maybe… on that day since it was cheapo Tuesday… but I’m not completely sure what happened to those plans LOL.
During the day, I had also planned to go to the library with Erin and Angela to ‘study’.. but I couldn’t go because the parents and I had a massive fight =___=“
WEDNESDAY [ 22O7O9 ]
Was supposed to go to Erins house with Joy and Cat to watch Harry Potter…
But went to Novie’s house instead to keep the loser company. HAHAHA. Jokejoke.
… She’d kill me if she saw that.
THURSDAY [ 23O7O9 ]
TODAYYY ! LMAO. Today was a GOOOODD DAYYY !
Was supposed to be Daniel’s drinkup thingy but that … I don’t know what happened to that.
Went to get a haircut with Ian and father in Chatswood.. OMG SHE THINNED MY HAIR SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE IM BALD…
Then met up with Grace, Cat and Angela afterwards… ate and stuff… THEN WATCHED HANNAH MONTANA ROFLLL !
OMG IT WAS SO MUCH BETTER THAN I HAD EXPECTED.
When we took our seats… Cat was like, “I’m going to cry if this movie is good…”
Or something alone those lines… SHE SAID SHE WAS GOING TO DO SOMETHING BUT I CANT REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS.
So anyway, when the movie finished..
She full laughed
And I looked at her and she was like
OMGGG THAT WAS SUCH A GOOD MOVIE HAHAHAH.
AND YES. IT WAS SUCH A GOOD MOVIE HAHAHA.
Got out the movie, met up with Erin and … someone.
Then that someone left and we went to eat…
Then I went on msn and Obed was like IM BOREDDD..
So he drove up to see us and we ate and talked and drove around and yeah.
I love being in Obed’s car. HAHAHA.
FRIDAY [ 24O7O9 ]
STARTING PROJECT ‘ DAY IN THE LIFE OF EREN ‘ TOMORROW !
And then she’s sleeping over…
SATURDAY [ 25O7O9 ]
Continuing sleepover… LMAO
SUNDAY [ 26O7O9 ]
Going to see a movie with Hubby and whoever else is coming… I don’t really know details or anything HAHAHA.
MONDAY [ 27O7O9 ]
GOTTA FINISH LAST MIN HW/ASSIGNMENTS !
TUESDAY [ 28O7O9 ]
SCHOOOOOLLL !
So yeah… I could’ve made that a lot longer… but I’ll be nice to my readers. HAHAHA.
PRETTY FCUKING GOOD HOLIDAYS MAN.
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Love drunk .. Boy you got me messed up .. I love you so much .. I don’t wanna sober up .. |
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baby ; you can have whatever you like ,
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EVERYONE !
I'm returning... ON TUESDAY
YEEEEEEEEEEE !
sexiest holidays so far.
cant be bothered to write about it all HAHA
so i'll just.. show you our sexy coco (:
theres 3 more... and thats the one that i look most retarded in..
BUT WHATEVER ROFL
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HAHA ; had sexy day today
good laughs (:
and i cant be bothered to write stuff but..
i wrote this when i went out west HOHHOHOOOOOO..
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i reminisce about the day that we met ; please god never let me forget
I constantly reminded myself of the importance of being independent. It's a skill that is rarely practiced..
I would constantly tell myself that as long as I had my friends, family and health.. I wouldn't need anything else in the world. I thought I had the world down..
This was my mindset for a large majority of my life...
then I met him..
He came
He destroyed me.
My life, cautiously crafted over 16 years by millions of experiences, influences, ideas and dreams...
... shattered in a moment by he.
He ;
A perfect compilation of my mind's representation of pure brilliance, joy and perfection.
I had never craved validation, but that was everything I wanted.
I could only get it from him.
Complete satisfaction...
... such an affect should be illegal.
A mere person, he is not.
He is belonging.
He is truth.
Ultimately,
he is love.
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i don't really know what to do..
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i was inviting
him into my heart
and he was out riding
in some other girls car
he was my night time
thought i was his star
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P: MAN. I lost my ID, I can't get into Bruno...
M: bring your passport
ROFL
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Okay so ... heres my holidays.
1OO7O9 - friday [ TODAY ]
Sleep in... FINALLY. Stay in and watch John Mayer concert DVD over n over n over
11O7O9 - saturday
I don't know. Probably nothing ROFL.
12O7O9 - sunday
lunch w/rice + obed ?
13O7O9 - monday
swimming with eren... MISSING OUT ON FCUKING FAME.
14O7O9 - tuesday
wofflebear day [ yumcha w/manlians? ]
15O7O9 - wednesday
noooothin
16O7O9 - thursday
WESTIE OUTING <3
17O7O9 - friday
RACHELS SWEET 16 <3
18O7O9 - saturday
nothings
second week isnt planned out yet ROFL
but i DO know that theres a piss up...
sleepover...
and k/dinner.
MAN. EXPENSIVE MUCH ?
i'm tired already and its the first day.
Ok things I have to do these holidays:
- see HIM
- rayshels bday
- pissup
- go west <3
- go swimming
- hang with rice
- hang with manlians
- hang with wests
- hang with mara//filos
- get a job ROFL
- sleepover
- kareoke
argh im so depressed.
I need that boy.
FUCK,
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shawty rock to the beat for your boy...
shawty, do it.
shawty rock to the beat for your boy...
RADIOKILLAAAAA ! |
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staying home alone on a friday,
flat on the floor looking back
on old love
or lack thereof.
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- patriciaaaa ; no letting go , says:
I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK TO BLOG ABOUT
+ whatthe[i]asian[/i] /WTF FUCK YOU·$0 says:
BLOG ABOUT
+ whatthe[i]asian[/i] /WTF FUCK YOU·$0 says:
IDNO
+ whatthe[i]asian[/i] /WTF FUCK YOU·$0 says:
WUTEVER COMES TO YOUR HEAD
- patriciaaaa ; no letting go , says:
PENIS.
+ whatthe[i]asian[/i] /WTF FUCK YOU·$0 says:
ok
+ whatthe[i]asian[/i] /WTF FUCK YOU·$0 says:
LOL
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So yeah . Penis.
FUCK IM SO NOT IN THE MOOD FOR ANYTHING RIGHT NOW ROFL. |
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See, I used to be so shy
sit at home and fantasize
but I aint wastin no more time
cause I've got to make you mine.
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Ok so like after going onto a public computer
i realise that my blog looks funny.
damn the massive screen that i usually see my sexy blog on (:
I can't be bothered to fix it up.
So not in the mood for all this HTML shit.
hohoho so anyway.
I'm so goddamn sick.
I have a major english assessment tomorrow and I don't know if I should go or not because if I went...
I'd probly vomit half way through the thing and
I know I wont do so well because I feel so shit.
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as people progress in their lives
they long for change
people are constantly wanting things that they dont have
whether it be clothes, shoes, food, social status, money, whatever.
i believe that it's totally fine to want...
but the thing that you want
should always be the thing
that youve thought about the most.
why do you want it ?
do you need it ?
what do you plan on getting from this ?
if your reason isnt good enough
then no
dont
thats just stupid
its the equivalent of buying a 50 dollar top that you dont even like that much when you only have 60.
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OH MY GOSH.
OKAY.
LAST NIGHT
[ despite the fact that im extremely sick... ]
I WENT OUT AND SAW THE HANGOVER
ok.
FUNNIEST MOVIE EVER ?
i'm STILL laughing
and I saw it like what
12 hours ago?
ITS TOO GOOD.
I wanna go to vegas and get drunk and do lotsa weird shit (:
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anyway ROFL.
As i mentioned before
I'm pretty sick.
I can't really talk
I could talk before
but now
its the biggest effort.
I can't imagine what it would be like to be mute...
I'd probably resort to like... violence...
if i couldnt scream and swear at people like i do HAHAHA
wow that just shows what a wonderful person i am.
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I used to love blogging so much...
I remember there was a time where I used to put down notes of what to write in my phone and then the first thing that i'd do when i got home was write and write and write about shit that people don't really care about...
... its sorta weird how writing is like
my hobby.
most people like...
play soccer..
or basketball...
or an instrument...
or cook...
or be nerds on msn [ stares @ rice ]
but i...
i write.
ROFL
isnt that gay ?
I am the result of one who does not have a landline, internet or laptop.
I can't wait to get my laptop back.
Life will be soooooooo much betterrrrrr.
this past 3 weeks have felt like... like...
gosh i don't know
BORING?
Although i have been going out quite a lot recently
but thats not a good thing.
urghhh.
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KISS ME THROUGH THE PHONEEE...
...coz im sick.
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